justrun-.

eight weeks since you've been gone

i am now thoroughly convinced that this pain will never go away. perhaps i don't want it to... i don't want to forget.. ever. everything has changed. there's just so much .. too much...

keep telling myself to hang in there for another 6 weeks.. and then i can crumble and let all of it out.

it's like a loaded gun.. do something wrong to trigger it off, and i would have had shot myself. one last chance. i can't afford mistakes, yet i can't help but make them. i don't know what i'm supposed to do... too many things.

i'm sad :( i want to press the self-destruct button. how am i supposed to leave all of this behind...

[pat]* decided to runaway-.

put on her shoes at [13:25]

and took [20070819] strides

it's the passion that drives you